Today is Tuesday, though it feels like a Monday. In some ways it doesn’t feel like any particular day at all. Unemployment does that to a person. I’m up since the sun showed up, and I’m getting things accomplished, but it still feels like I’m on some weird hiatus. I know its for the best. I know that I’m breathing easier, sleeping better, feeling clearer, but I am still knotted up with worry for the practical shit like money and bills and existence. I want to believe something new is just around the bend, but I’m still scared of finding nothing.

Today I am pruning and watering my plants, indoors and out. I’m cleaning house, finishing the last of a book, and writing. I’m doing that job hunting shit, too, but I’m trying to make space for myself, and my surroundings. I feel better when the spaces around me feel better.

Going to paint my nails a light blue and listen to lots of music today, and watch an episode or two of a show on Hulu I just discovered (Conversations with Friends). Fill my days, and tonight make a taco Tuesday kind of feast. Accepting song and album recommendations and good luck wishes for a new job. Thank you xxx

GIVE ME FIVE…JUNE 21, 2022

Available to listen on Spotify and YouTube

SONG 1: “Call Your Name” by Tora-i

Tora-i
“Call Your Name” by Tora-i – from the album, Cavalier (2020)

“Call your name out –
to love you forever and not just tonight.
Ooh, that I have when the lights are out,
I know I’ve tried.
But, if it doesn’t dance,
when you’re not in my sight,
please, can you tell me why?”

I discovered Tora-i’s song “Call Your Name”, and her debut ep, Cavalier, during the 2020 pandemic lockdown. Ever since, I’ve been digging her sound and style, especially this track. The lyrics above, they remind me of love that is fading, but that the lover really wants/wanted to sustain.

Check-out more of Tora-i HERE – you won’t regret it.

Tora-i

SONG 2: “…MOVES” BY SUKI WATERHOUSE

Suki Waterhouse
“…Moves” by Suki Waterhouse – from the album, I Cant Let Go (2022)

“I can’t forget that night,
you said I looked like Suzi Quatro.
In the morning light, faded to oblivion
And I said, ‘that’s alright,
at least we feel alive, at least we feel alive.'”

I was sucked in by that opening line…”you said I looked like Suzi Quatro.” Throwback to my love of 70s glam and Suzi, even if this song is more indie pop than glam rock, I still dig the lyrical line.

I heard about Suzi Waterhouse when my fellow music lover friend (and ex-record store coworker from years past) mentioned she was going to see Father John Misty this Summer at Hollywood Forever Cemetery. Her name sounded familiar, and I thought I’d heard her before, but when I looked her up she was a new discovery – and this song dragged me in.

Suki Waterhouse

SONG 3: “BUDDY’S RENDEZVOUS” BY LANA DEL REY AND FATHER JOHN MISTY

Father John Misty and Lana Del Rey
“Buddy’s Rendezvous” by Father John Misty and Lana Del Rey – from the album, Chloe and the Next 20th Century (2022) by Father John Misty

“Everybody’s girl
What’s the point in being everybody’s girl?”

Opening line hits hard. Reminds me of Tori’s “she’s been everybody else’s girl maybe one day she’ll be her own,” As a people pleaser via trauma girl myself, I feel this and spend a lot of time in therapy, in journal pages, in my own mind trying to work through this, asking myself these same questions.

It’s so hard to change a pattern that is so deeply embedded in who I am, but the work is worth it. Thanks, Lana and Father John. Thanks, Tori (always thanks to Tori). I need the reminders to hear, sing-a-long to, and embed in myself.

For more of Lana Del Rey, go HERE. For more of Father John Misty, go HERE.

Father John Misty and Lana Del Rey

SONG 4: “I DON’T REALLY CARE FOR YOU” BY CMAT

CMAT
“I Don’t Really Care For You” by CMAT – from the album, If My Wife New I’d Be Dead (2022)

“Choking back a Breezer on the patio,
within earshot of that guy we knew.
Oh, the Marian Keyes of it all.
Babe, you rewriting everything I do.”

I started watching “Conversations With Friends”, the Hulu series adapted from the Sally Rooney book. So far, I am really enjoying it – especially the lead character, Frances. The music is so good, too. This track was in the first episode, and I liked it so much I had to pause the show to look it up.

To hear more from CMAT (I know I’m going to), click HERE.

CMAT

SONG 5: “IT’S ALRIGHT” BY ECHO AND THE BUNNYMEN

Echo and the Bunnymen
“It’s Alright” by Echo and the Bunnymen – from the album, Flowers (2001)

“Here comes tomorrow,
and yesterday’s news.
Empty and hollow,
broken and bruised.
No one to follow,
nothing to lose –
And only you can choose.”

Love discovering an album I’ve never heard from a band I’ve loved for years. This song is my current favorite off of 2001’s Flower. I can’t wait to dive in deeper.

I have been lucky enough to have seen them play live a few times. I hope I get to again in the future.

(I’m so glad live music is back)

To hear more Echo and the Bunnymen songs and albums, go HERE now.

Echo and the Bunnymen

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