Today feels heavy and a bit rough around the edges. My emotions feel raw and my anxiety decided to pay a visit, but I’m pushing through, listening to music, keeping on-schedule with projects and deadlines, while still trying to give myself a little extra room to breathe. Trying to give me a bit of a break.
I’d rather be on a road trip today. I’d rather be by the ocean, or maybe driving through the desert, stopping at a roadside diner, or gas station mini-mart. I’d rather not be dealing with my long commute. I’d rather not be sitting in an office with recycled air and computer screens.
But, for now, this is where I’m at. Physically. Emotionally.
At least the music is good.
Top 5 Music Obsessions – February 12, 2020
1. “Momentary Bliss” by Gorillaz, with slowthai and Slaves
Single “Momentary Bliss” (2020)
“We could do so much better than this.
Emotionally in fences and momentary bliss.
We could do so much better than this.”
The new Gorillaz track is SO GOOD. Shades of The Clash and The Libertines. I hear them both.
2. “Kindling (Fickle Flame)” by Elbow, with John Grant
from the album, Little Fictions (2017)
“I could fold to the cold of these,
But your smile in the half-light is,
pure pillow print cheek.”
I always find myself obsessed with Elbow songs.
3. “Monkey Gone To Heaven” by Pixies
from the album, Doolittle (1989)
“If man is five, if man is five, if man is five,
then the devil is six, then the devil is six.
The devil is six, the devil is six and if the devil is six,
then God is seven , then God is seven, then God is seven.”
Quite possibly my favorite Pixies’ song. From 1989-1992, whenever I met up with friends at a local bar I’d put this song on the jukebox (along with a few others that rotated/changed).
When I lived in my first apartment I played the Doolittle album A LOT. My boyfriend and I, who lived there together, adopted two kittens – one of them we named Doolittle, after the album.
4. “Beaten Down” by Sharon Van Etten
Single “Beaten Down” (2020)
“Your big ol’ heart gets beaten down.”
I AM SO TOTALLY OBSESSED WITH THIS NEW SHARON VAN ETTEN TRACK!!!!
5. “Angel Mine” by Cowboy Junkies
from the album, Lay It Down (1996)
“I can’t promise that I’ll grow those wings,
or keep this tarnished halo shined,
but I’ll never betray your trust,
Maybe its because I’ve been re-watching My So-Called Life while listening to an episode-by-episode podcast. Or, maybe its because I’ve been having these nostalgia-heavy moments of missing parts of me and times in my life, but today I’d love to go back to the ’90s. At least for a week, or two.
I think if I had to pick a decade of music – in my lifetime – that I love/loved the most it would be the ’90s.