Fiona Apple – My Top 10

Fiona Apple. When I think of Fiona Apple my mind shifts back in time to the ’90s almost immediately, even though I’ve listened to her music far past that quintessential/coming-of-age in my twenties decade. That said, it was during my tumultuous twenties that I needed Fiona the most. The music helped. It made me feel seen and heard, and less alone, and it had me falling in love with her voice (how could I not?)

So many of my favorite songs come from Fiona’s first two albums – from the ’90s – which also may cause my mental and emotional rewind. I listen to those albums now and feel those first feelings of the girl I was then come to the surface of me now. Fiona feels like a sonic postcard singing to me from my twenties.

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I felt so lost back then, so transient, and yet, I also felt so hopeful. I was a walking and talking juxtaposition of feeling and emotion, mixed in with the near-constant struggle of not knowing who I was yet. Back then I’d drive to the ocean when my emotions felt too much. I’d toss my heart into the waves while trying to tether myself to the shifting tide, turning my eyes away from any red flag danger ahead.

Back then I tried to hide the scars I bore, both internal and external while trying to ignore the holes inside me that felt like they’d never fill – or I’d try to fill them with other people, other substances, with unhealthy behaviors, and with music.

Still…I kept loving and believing in something. In life. In love. In dreams becoming reality. Part of my survival was dreaming.

Fiona Apple My Top 10

Tidal was one of two go-to albums I clung to while going through recovery from an eating disorder. When The Pawn gifted me the courage to leave a bad relationship and to try for love with someone new. Fiona’s other albums, though I do like quite a bit, never had quite the same impact on me, and my life. That said, the non-album song “Container”, used as the theme to the Showtime series, “The Affair”, definitely resonates with who I am now.

Do you have a favorite Fiona Apple Song? If so, please share in the comments below.

Here’s mine:

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My Top 10 Fiona Apple Songs

1. “Sleep To Dream”
from the album, Tidal (1996)

“I tell you how I feel,
but you don’t care.
I say tell me the truth,
but you don’t dare.
You say love is a hell you cannot bear,
and I say gimme mine back and then go there,
for all I care.”

2. “I Know”
from the album, When The Pawn... (1999)

“And you can use my skin,
to bury your secrets in –
and I will settle you down.”

3. “Paper Bag”
from the album, When The Pawn… (1999)

“Hunger hurts,
and I want him so bad –
oh, it kills,
’cause I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up.
I got to fold ’cause these hands are too shaky to hold.
Hunger hurts,
but starvin’ works,
when it costs too much to love.”

4. “Sullen Girl”
from the album, Tidal (1996)

“And, there’s too much going on.
But, it’s calm under the waves.”

5. “Container”
from the Showtime Series “The Affair” (no album)

“I have only one thing to do and that’s,
be the wave that I am and then,
sink back into the ocean.

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6. “Fast As You Can”
from the album, When The Pawn… (1999)

And I’ll be your girl,
if you say it’s a gift,
and you give me some more of your drugs.
I’ll be your pet,
if you just tell me it’s a gift.
‘Cause I’m tired of whys,
choking on whys –
just need a little because, because.”

7. “Never Is A Promise”
from the album, Tidal (1996)

“You’ll never touch these things that I hold,
the skin of my emotions lies beneath my own.
You’ll never feel the heat of this soul,
my fever burns me deeper than I’ve ever shown –
to you.”

8. “Shadowboxer”
from the album, Tidal (1996)

“Once my lover,
now my friend.
What a cruel thing to pretend.
What a cunning way to condescend.
Once my lover,
and now my friend.”

9. “Better Version Of Me”
from the album, Extraordinary Machine (2005)

“I’m a frightened,
fickle person,
fighting, cryin’, kickin’, cursin’.
What should I do?”

10. “Limp”
from the album, When The Pawn... (1999)

“You fondle my trigger,
then you blame my gun.”

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