Today’s the last day of April. Last days lead to first days. Last days are not goodbyes, but more like see you later’s. Last days are doors closing so others can open. Last days are wiping slates clean, writing out lists and wishes, and letting go so you can let new things in. And, last days are just like any other day sometimes, too. It’s all about perspective.
I’m feeling positive this week. I’m feeling good about things in my life. Most of them, at least. I’m feeling both motivated and accomplished. A month ago there were things I wanted to change, and they are changing. I’m changing them. I have a lot more work to do, and there are things that are not working in my life, but I see the progress. I feel it. I feel good. Even with the ebb and flow of anxiety, I am feeling (mostly) good.
Today’s Top 5 Music Obsessions feel it, too, I think. They feel good, or they make me feel good, at least. I played them all, off and on, all morning and afternoon. Turn them up loud and I hope you enjoy all 5 of them, too. You can stream on Spotify and YouTube – or just press play below.
Top 5 Music Obsessions – April 30, 2019
1. “There is an Everlasting Song” by Belle and Sebastian
from the album, How to Solve Our Human Problems (Parts 1-3) (2018)
Not on YouTube
“There is an everlasting morning near the sun.
It burns a hole in my heart,
makes me want to run.
And, I would run all day if they give me the choice.
I hear your voice,
I hear your voice,
I hear your voice.”
A 100% feel good song. Even melancholic tracks by B&S make me feel good. They always have, ever since I discovered the album If You’re Feeling Sinister, back in the mid-90s.
This is recent. Last year recent. Though I’m just discovering it now, the album(s), and the song. This is my first listen favorite.
It reminds me of falling in love. That first falling feeling. And, it reminds me of feeling that love long after the first fall. The way that it can be still big and bold and beautiful, if you let it. If you let your heart love like that.
For a long, long time I believed it to be fleeting. Never as good as in the beginning. But, I think differently now. I believe it doesn’t have to be that way. Though I fear, often it is just that – especially when the other person believes in the fleeting, and first rush love-spiracy.
You can’t love big for both people. You can try. But, it only works when both people show up, and believe.
2. “Sodajerk” by Buffalo Tom
from the album, Big Red Letter Day (1993)
“But if my patience,
were a spaceship,
high up in orbit.
Then I would rise here.
Risen from where I sit.”
There isn’t a time when this song doesn’t remind me of two things: My So-Called Life, and working at Tower Records.
This song, and the band are synonymous with both – and with who I was in my life back then. Its like sonic ’90s time travel.
3. “Time is the Killer” by Rain Phoenix and Michael Stipe
from the EP, “Time Gone” (2019)
“Time is the killer.
Time is the killer.
Time is the mirror.
Time is the healer.
Time is the teacher.
Time is the killer.”
This is beautiful, heartbreaking, poignant, relevant, and everything I obsess over in a song.
I’ve always loved the duets that Michael Stipe does. Like with Kristin Hersh, Natalie Merchant, Syd Straw, Dashboard Confessional, this one, etc.
The rest of this EP is wonderful, too. Though this is definitely my favorite track. It says/sings a lot of the things I am feeling lately. It speaks/sings to mindfulness, to me.
4. “I’m On Fire” by Electrelane
from the album, Singles, B-Sides, and Live (2006)
“At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet,
and a freight train running through the middle of my head.
Only you can cool my desire.”
How many people have covered Bruce Springsteen’s “I’m On Fire”? I feel like I could build a playlist with just covers of this song.
No matter how many I hear though, I never seem to get tired of it. I’m always crushing on every new version I find.
I love how this one feels/sounds like a ’90s riot grrrl clash with an ’80s new wave band…in the best way.
5. “Midnight” by Altered Images
from the album, Happy Birthday (1981)
“Somebody left their blood on my door.
Serial numbers 024.”
Speaking of new wave. One of my favorite new wave bands is Altered Images, and I’ve always enjoyed this track without actually digging in deep to the lyrics. They are actually very disturbing.
Part of me wants to go back to when this song was just something I danced to at clubs in the late ’80s, and earlier, in my teenage bedroom.