Friday eve, or Friday Junior, as a past co-worker used to call it, is upon us. I actually woke up thinking it was Friday, but at least we’re close. I’m feeling much better, and so much more like myself today. I don’t think I realized how rough yesterday was until it was almost the end of the day. Sometimes I push things down too far and push too hard to keep moving. When that happens I don’t always let myself feel what I’m feeling, while I’m feeling it, and it bubbles up to the surface later. It was certainly surface bubbling last night. I’m grateful that before the night was officially over I’d gotten past it. That connecting with my love helped so much, as did sharing music with each other. It took some time to get there, and it felt a bit rougher than it needed to be because I couldn’t seem to ask for what I needed. I’m still learning how to do that. Its never been easy for me to ask for help, or to express needs to another person. But, I think its important, and I know that I trust him enough to be that vulnerable. It’s hard though. But, it is so worth getting through the hard stuff together, I think.
Today’s Top 5 Music Obsessions are an eclectic mix from the past. Two from the early 80’s, one from the 70’s, and two from the 90’s. Together they are making Thursday a little better, even if Thursday isn’t Friday. Soon. We’re almost there.
Top 5 Music Obsessions – Thursday, August 23, 2018
1. “This Town” by The Go-Go’s
from the album, Beauty and the Beat (1981)
“This town is our town,
it is so glamorous,
I bet you’d live here if you could,
and be one of us.”
I love songs about Los Angeles, and this one is one of my favorite LA songs, as well as one of my favorite Go-Go’s tracks. The 80’s was my adolescence, my coming-of-age, the first phase of it, at least. Back then I dreamed of being a singer in a girl group. Something like The Go-Go’s, with a little Bangles and Runaways thrown in.
2. “1980 Or So” by Television
from the album, Television (1992)
“O rose of my heart,
can’t you see,
I don’t belong to misery.”
First tracks are a favorite thing of mine. This one is quite a cool one. I don’t know this album of Television’s as well as their debut, Marquee Moon, but I’m enjoying getting acquainted with it.
I love the lyric above, and the sentiment of not belonging to misery. Its hard to feel miserable, to feel sad, stressed, or anxious, and not let it become you. Its a struggle. One I’ve tried to conquer throughout my life, sometimes winning at it, sometimes falling hard and failing. Making our way through life is hard stuff sometimes.
3. “China Girl” by David Bowie
from the album, Let’s Dance (1983)
“And when I get excited,
my little China girl says,
just you shut your mouth.”
1983. MTV. I had quite a crush on Bowie at this time. Especially in this video. Though I’d go on to explore so much of his music that came before, and love so much of it more, I have a huge soft spot for this song, and the Let’s Dance album. I’ll always love both.
Chris and I were talking about favorite years of music last night. 1983 is definitely one of mine. This album is one of the reasons, for sure.
4. “Landslide” by Fleetwood Mac
from the album, Rumours (1975)
“Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changin’ ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?”
I’ve written a dozen times two times about Fleetwood Mac and the Rumours album, at least. I’ve written quite a few times about this song in particular. It is such a bittersweet song. Sad, but beautiful. There is loss in it. Age. Change. And love.
Every time I hear it I hear something else in it. I relate to it more. I feel it more.
5. “You Don’t Know How It Feels” by Tom Petty
from the album, Sunflowers (1994)
“But let me get to the point,
let’s roll another joint,
and turn the radio loud.
I’m too alone to be proud.
You don’t know how it feels,
you don’t know how it feels,
to be me.”
I love Petty’s Wildflowers album. Its one of my favorites of his.
Though there is a lot of loneliness in this song, it somehow always cheers me up. I played it very loud this morning. Singing-a-long the whole time.