Today’s Top 5 Music Obsessions are all songs I listened to on my commute into work. The weather is still warm here in Los Angeles, but starting to slowly cool down. I kept the window down for the drive, enjoying breathing in the morning. I’m counting the days until its Fall. I’m ready for sweater weather, cooler temperatures, and the feel of Autumn on my skin. I know there’s still time to wait, but with school back in session, it feels like Fall should already be here. I’m looking forward to spending this Autumn with Chris, our first together. Once the air cools I’m hoping we can go walking in the evenings sometimes. Where we live now is up against some hiking and horse trails. It would be nice to get out of the house some evenings, walk hand-in-hand and talk, or not talk. I’d love to get one of those headphone cord splitters so we could listen to music together while walking like they did in the film Begin Again. I’ve been wanting to do that with someone ever since I saw it, and I can’t think of anyone I’d rather do that with but him.
Top 5 Music Obsessions – Monday, August 13, 2018
1. “To Bring You My Love” by Polly Jean Harvey
from the album, To Bring You My Love (1995)
“Cast out of heaven.
Cast down on my knees.
I’ve lain with the devil.
Cursed god above.
To bring you my love.”
It took years to find the love I have in my life now. In some ways, it feels like it took a lifetime. But everything, every rough time, every failed relationship, every close call and false start, and heartbreak was worth it to be here now. To have found the love we have now.
2. “Cowboys” by Portishead
from the album, Portishead (1997)
“But don’t despair this day,
will be their damnedest day.
Ooh, if you take these things from me.”
One of my favorite Portishead songs (in my Top 10). A strong opening track (I love opening tracks) that makes me think of a post-modern/post-apocalyptic city, or what’s left of a city. Perhaps Los Angeles left in shambles, turned more into a desert than its ever been. It reminds me of the apocalyptic/speculative fiction novel I’ve been working on, off-and-on, for a few years. I think this track is on my character Remy’s playlist.
3. “About You” by The Jesus And Mary Chain
from the album, Darklands (1987)
“I can see,
that you and me,
live our lives in the pouring rain,
and the raindrops beat out of time to our refrain.
And you and me,
I believe in us. Completely. No matter how rough it is sometimes, making our way in this life, I know we will always be good. I know we will always find our way to us. Always.
4. “Save Me” by Aimee Mann
from the album, Magnolia – Music from the Motion Picture (1999)
“You look like,
the perfect fit,
for a girl in need,
of a tourniquet.
But can you save me?”
I think I realized long ago that the only one who could save me was myself. That said, I think love saves me, too, every day. And I think, in our own ways, we save each other, every day. I think it is part of the way we love each other.
And though I think we each have to save ourselves. That we have to want to be saved, or fixed, or “okay”. But, that at the end of the day, when we curl up into each other’s arms, that the love we hold and share together, saves us, too. Or maybe it’s just the stuff that makes all the challenges and work and living worth it.
We are lucky to have it. This love, and each other.
5. “Revelator” by Gillian Welch
from the album, Time (The Revelator) (2001)
“Leaving the valley,
fucking out of sight.
I’ll go back to Cali where I can sleep out every night.
And, watch the waves and move the fader –
times’ the revelator,
I want to write a story to this song. I close my eyes and listen and see a story unfold. I can feel it under my skin. Music is such a muse to me.