Today’s Top 5 Music Obsessions are a blend of older and newer songs. They all came from my early morning when I was feeling lighter and brighter than I do now. Mondays are rough and today feels extra rough at that. I’m not used to being able to lean on someone else. Not at all. I forget that I have a real partner now. I need to remember it more, I think. And, for now, today, I need to turn these five up songs up higher.
Top 5 Music Obsessions – Monday, June 30, 2018
1. “Feel the Pain” by Dinosaur Jr.
“I feel the pain of everyone,
then I feel nothing.”
Sometimes I hit my threshold. The strength I have hits a limit, and then it feels like I’m going to implode, and then collapse. Anxiety is hard, especially when overwhelm hits. I wish I was even more strong than I am. I want to be there for the people I love all the time.
2. “Love is Overtaking Me” by Arthur Russell
“Love is overtaking me.
And, my heart pounds out your name in the night.”
And in the day. Anytime really. I’ve never loved anyone like this.
I forgot about this song, and this album, and Arthur Russell until I heard it early today on this week’s Spotify Discover Playlist. I remember hearing this album when I was in Resistor Records when it was still open. I bought it after hearing just one song.
3. “Little Movies” by Aaron Lee Tasjan
“Watch the day unfold in little movies,
with silver tears that sparkle from my eyes.
I catch myself and turn to toughen up,
but it hurts too much to try.”
Today everything hurts for some reason. I’ve been fighting off a cold, or something. That I can feel. And I’m exhausted and overwhelmed and worried about so many things. I need a day to rest, to get some things done, and to maybe just collapse for a bit and watch a movie, or two, with my love.
4. “Idaho” by Gorillaz
there’s a beauty on the road,
and every day I look out of the bus,
silver linings getting lost.”
A song about (or maybe just called) “Idaho” is strange for Gorillaz. But, I really like it. It feels dreamy and melancholy and beautiful. It feels like a good song to kiss slowly to, even if its about (or maybe just called) “Idaho”.
5. “Valentine” by Bryan Ferry
“None of them will ever guess,
but you understand.”
Another song that seems made for kissing slowly to. But, then again, nearly everything by Bryan Ferry and Roxy Music is suited for kissing and making love, in my opinion.