Once my lover, now my friend :: SOTD


Keep Art Alive :: “Shadowboxer” :: Art by Sarah Joncas

Oh, it’s evil, babe
The way you let your grace enrapture me.
When will you know I’d be insane to ever let that dirty game,
recapture me?”

by me

The time passes in ripples and waves
from the last time’s last time
to how many times has it been this time
neither of us knows anymore

We play two foolish hands of the same liars game
the fiction tale of a you and an I as some kind of friends
when you know the shadow figures will come out to dance and dive
and twist that delicious knife into our stripped bare insides

So I close my eyes to make it all just go away
tucking you into the box marked keep it in yesterday
but you seep into the muck and mire of my dreams
grabbing my hand in yours as some kind of conclusion
weaving our fingers into an interlock of what if this time’s

But I’m not going to fall for it again
my cards are held close even as my walls crack in two
this is the part where we think that we can handle the fire
that burns us down to the marrow and bone

But we never can stand that kind of heat for very long
we always just dive back into the ocean of cold disregard
escaping into the safety of predictable disappointment
even though we know its better to burn than to keep running away

Shadowboxer :: Fiona Apple

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