That’s not me :: SOTD

kingscanyon

Keep Art Alive :: Kings Canyon :: Art by Kris Lewis

In a little while,
I’ll be gone.
The moments already passed,
yeah, it’s gone.
And I’m not here,
this isn’t happening.
I’m not here.
I’m not here
.”

Late last night in the midst of those unavoidable sleepless hours, when sadness and insomnia were clasping hands tightly, and turning me completely inside out, I think, for an brief moment in time, in the haze of exhaustion, I felt transparent. Perhaps it was a wish, of sorts, to disappear completely – if only for a day or so – and not face the emotions I was feeling.

This song reminds me of that.

Also, this particular version just takes the breath out of me, and brings tears to my eyes. Radiohead is one of those bands that I never fully embraced to the levels that most of my musically obsessed, and self-defined indie friends, ever did. I loved The Bends album, and never quite loved anything after. I know some of this was all the hype, and the never ending shout-outs the band received, silencing many of the bands I utterly adored.

That said, sometimes distance makes the heart grow fonder, and I have come around to some of the undeniable incredible songs that came after The Bends. This is one of them.

How to Disappear Completely (live) :: Radiohead
originally from the album Kid A

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