Beauty in the breakdown :: songs and quotes

“The thing is… to love life,  to love it even when you have no stomach for it and everything you’ve held dear crumbles like burnt paper in your hands, your throat filled with the silt of it. When grief sits with you, its tropical heat thickening the air, heavy as water more fit for gills than lungs; when grief weights you like your own flesh only more of it, an obesity of grief, you think, how can a body withstand this? Then you hold life like a face between your palms, a plain face, no charming smile, no violet eyes, … Continue reading Beauty in the breakdown :: songs and quotes

Well I’m a million different people from one day to the next :: musical sensory recall

“Well I never pray, but tonight I’m on my knees, yeah. I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah. I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now. But, the airways are clean and there’s nobody singing to me now.” Sometimes I despise being the strong one, the persistent one, the one that no one things needs a shoulder to lean on. Even as a child there was never that safe space to land, not really, all of everyone always came to me, dropping their worries and troubles at my … Continue reading Well I’m a million different people from one day to the next :: musical sensory recall

We got California drowning out the window side :: song of the day

Keep Art Alive :: Art by Jolene Lai “Got no place to go, but there’s a girl waiting for me down in Mexico. She’s got a bottle of tequila, a bottle of gin, and if I bring a little music I can fit right in.” There are wishes, and there are dreams, and there are songs that make things seem possible even when deep down you know they are probably never going to come to be. There are beaches and laughter, discarded straw hats and bare feet, and music, always music. It is a celebration, someone has just gotten married, … Continue reading We got California drowning out the window side :: song of the day