Tori lies back on the couch and takes a blessed moment to stare at the beige ceiling before returning to her whirling thoughts. “Again, all I can say is I still have feelings. A part of me wants to rejoice in their happiness; they’ve worked hard, but sometimes I feel like… ahhhhh… I am looking at strangers, how they are looking back at me. I am very aware of the things that dawned on me over the past year and a half with people who knew me. I am trying to learn how to be gracious,” she admits.
After another rejuvenating pause Tori grows more animated, exclaiming, “You know it’s not going to work, you know all these things, but you still have feelings… but it’s just not appropriate to acknowledge them. And more than anything I find it interesting what I still find attractive. That’s the whole thing that came when I sang that… ‘you still look pretty’ which… that can mean a lot of things,” she sighs. (B-Side Magazine, May/June 1996)
Likewise, Neil [Gaiman] has said things to Tori, which, unknown to him at the time, would later appear in her songs. The example he gave was when he once told her a story about how Groucho Marx had told his daughter to go out shopping. She blatantly refused but, he insisted that she should go shopping. Eventually, under protest, she conceded and headed for the stores. Some hours later, Groucho’s daughter returned with a poodle and a Corvette and he vowed never to send her shopping again. This story stayed with Tori as it later appeared in the lyrics to “Putting the Damage On” from Boys for Pele. (Take to the Sky #10, 1997)
Because boy you sure look pretty when you’re putting the damage on, but it did leave us oh so damaged, don’t you remember?
Putting the Damage On (live) :: Tori Amos