Keep Art Alive :: “The Lookout” :: Art by Kelly Haigh
A Girl and Her Blues
that only I can see,
after a five shot night of whiskey,
or a twist tryst with someone who calls you by every name,
but your own.
needs to be blurred out or painted over,
made into some unrecognizable fantasy,
that just cements all those grade school slurs,
and the party invitations that missed my post box,
ever the muse just thrown into a new set and form,
by a different artist’s hand,
(or are you just a killer in a spray paint disguise).
and I lock the bathroom door behind me afterwards,
watch black streaks of borrowed eyeliner slide down my skin,
as I feel nothing but the cold tiles under my feet,
ever searching the mirror reflection,
to find who I am anymore.
gashes that spell out every weakness and lie,
and I think to myself,
that there are not enough tears in one girl’s lifetime,
to make this ever okay.
and made me into someone from your what if stories,
at least then I could read ahead and know how it was all,
supposed to end.
The Ship Song (live/cover) :: Amanda Palmer