Fast as You Can :: Fiona Apple

Deep down I think I have always been afraid that if I was ever truly and completely myself, without filters, without holding back, without trying so damn hard all the time, that everyone I love would leave me. That they would see me for me, all my crazy parts, all my flaws, all my ugly, all my weakness, and I would collapse from the weight of watching them leave. This song reminds me of that fear, the fear I try to combat, try to push away, try to persist through, and run fast enough away from.

Some days are easier than others.

One thought on “Sometimes my mind don’t shake and shift :: video of the day

  1. You are not alone. I have that exact same fear. I do know of those who have acted on that fear, expecting the worst, and found that the people in their lives only connected with them more. There is hope.
    –JW

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