Fast as You Can :: Fiona Apple
Deep down I think I have always been afraid that if I was ever truly and completely myself, without filters, without holding back, without trying so damn hard all the time, that everyone I love would leave me. That they would see me for me, all my crazy parts, all my flaws, all my ugly, all my weakness, and I would collapse from the weight of watching them leave. This song reminds me of that fear, the fear I try to combat, try to push away, try to persist through, and run fast enough away from.
Some days are easier than others.
You are not alone. I have that exact same fear. I do know of those who have acted on that fear, expecting the worst, and found that the people in their lives only connected with them more. There is hope.
–JW