I’m ready to be heartbroken :: Song of the day

“I can’t see further than my own nose at this moment.”

Everytime I hear this song my thoughts are immediately taken to scenes from Say Anything. I am sure the name Lloyd has a lot to do with it – Lloyd Dobler being such a iconic character, especially to my generation, he is the definitive Lloyd to me (and honestly, the only one I can recall at this moment). I am also reminded of the line in Say Anything when Lloyd says “I want to get hurt,” when discussing the possibility of dating Diane Court with his two female best friends, Corey and D.C.

I am also prone to start contemplating if any of us are really ever ready to be heartbroken. Is the action of taking a risk with someone, opening ourselves up enough to fall in love, or to even just date someone – is that action an acknowledgement that we are willing to be hurt by someone else? Or, when faced with attraction/desire/possibility of love do we suddenly all become the naive optimist who still believes in love at first sight/soulmates/true love?

And, what of those of us who are jaded by design (or really, jaded by bad experiences)? What happens when someone with low expectations, or just the inner prediction of failure, chooses to fall in love? Are they honestly saying “yes, I will walk into a coming bus? Dive head first into a pool of pirannahs? Just smile and say, yeah, you, go on and hurt me?” A train of thought such as how Lloyd sees Corey when he tells her, via a hand-held cassette recorder, “You probably got it all figured out, Corey. If you start out depressed everything’s kind of a pleasant surprise.”

Are we all expecting the worse anyway? Do we think we are the exception? Or are we all just a combination of blind foolishness and self-destruction when it comes to love?

For me, I guess I am a little like Lloyd. I am willing to get hurt, but I am ever-hopeful I won’t be. To be honest I tend to prefer one of the last exchanges spoken in the film,

“Nobody thinks it will work, do they?” (Diane)
“No. You just described every great success story.” (Lloyd)

Lloyd, I’m Ready to be Heartbroken :: Camera Obscura

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