Sometimes it occurs to me how much I have not done yet. Places I want to explore, adventures I want to forge, and moments I want to experience. There is a crazy courage that seems to be slowly coming to life within me, an electric buzz of conviction that I did not have at the … Continue reading You screamed and everybody comes a-running
Someday you will ache like I ache
I have spent the majority of my grown-up life feeling spread too thin. When I close my eyes I picture my limbs turning to rubber, stretching beyond reality, until I snap. There is always someplace or some person or something that needs a part of me. I am not saying I am a prisoner, forced … Continue reading Someday you will ache like I ache
Yeah, you know her
It was my first trip away from home that did not involve family of some sort. A school trip, all of us piled in a much too hot bus that smelled of sweat, Bubble Yum, and the early onset of adolescence. I held the tape player between my knees, squishing in closer to Christina so … Continue reading Yeah, you know her
I need you, I don’t need you, I need you, I don’t need you
Ah. That. That's what I was so disturbed about this morning: My desire has come back, and I want you again. I was doing fine, I was above it all. The boys and girls were beautiful and I was an old man, loving everyone. And now I want you again, I want your absolute attention, … Continue reading I need you, I don’t need you, I need you, I don’t need you
You are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins
There are certain moments that we hold sacred, or secret, within ourselves. Perhaps we never tell anyone else about them, or if we do, we hold back little details because there is something so precious in the memory that sharing it too completely with someone else - someone who was not in that moment with … Continue reading You are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins
Yeah, for us, these are the days
There once was a boy who sang this song to a girl sitting atop a train tunnel, as the sun was just starting to come up. The girl knew he was never really hers, that he was fleeting, temporarily on loan to her. Yet even in the few stolen moments they had the girl learned … Continue reading Yeah, for us, these are the days
Left my soul there
When everything feels overwhelming, and all my fears have taken residency in my head and heart, water is usually the only thing that brings me solace. I do not necessarily need to be submerged in it, sometimes all it really takes is to be in close proximity to it. The ocean, she is a healer, … Continue reading Left my soul there
Inspiration is what you are to me
"If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you. When mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me." Thank You :: Tori Amos
I’ve got nothing today but smile
I am learning to recognize that every day that I wake up to I have choices to make. That may sound simple, I mean we all make choices as to what to wear, whether to have a second (or third) cup of coffee before we leave, what to have for lunch, but there are other … Continue reading I’ve got nothing today but smile